Emptiness

I don't know why.
The only thing I look forward to right now is writing in my blog.
My heart is hurting;; because I should not been doing this to myself.
To anyone;; to my parents;; to my family.
As I write;; I realized more and more what I'm doing is really stupid.
I wanna stop but I don't know what else to do to fill this.
This aching spot.