Introduction To Jordan

Assalamualaikum peepers and stalkers :D

I haven't checked whether or not I have yet posted a post when I'm already in Jordan .

So;; here:: my first post in Jordan :D

I arrived here on the 7th of September 2012;; and met my senior that I have met before when I came for a two month stint with a markaz lughah in Amman. Her name is Shima-san.

Right now I got a place in the hostel that is called Sakan Kuning orrrrrr the Yellow Hostel. Buildings in Jordan are about as different as clovers in a field of clovers. They have the same shape;; the same color... and even built with the same material. Usually that is. But my hostel is painted yellow (Yay! I love any sign of cheerfulness);; that trait is so remarkable and 'Wow!' that we Malaysian students called that particular hostel Sakan Kuning.

My life in Jordan has been quite hectic but still organizeable and I actually still have free time to do whatever I want... Even update my now dusty blog HAHAHAHA.

Ohh I love caps lock :P

Because of the monotonous quality of the surroundings of this little country that is very appreciative of their water because of its scarce water source;; Jordanians love to express themselves through their attire. Jordanian women wear very bright colors with layers of makeup that I wonder how in the world did they keep them on?? Don't they melt or something?? And doesn't it feel thick when I;; the onlooker;; look at the fully made up face and thought to myself;; "I hope her skin can breathe in ALL.... that." 

And the same can be said about Jordanian men's attire. I THOUGHT THEY DON'T KNOW ONE DIRECTION?!!! There was this one day I was walking inside the area of the University that is very kind to accept my application letter;; Yarmouk University;; that I saw ALOT of these guys;; that look ALOT older but actually is the same age as me and you and him and her:: just eighteen;; wearing skinny jeans. Okay I saw alot of Malaysian guys wear skinnies;; no biggie.... But colored skinny jeans??? It freaks me out;; yes;; because I was just about to get a surprise heart attack when I thought I saw Harry Styles or Nialler (I can't remember his last name) or Zayn Malik or Liam Payne or.... that other guy in One Direction that I SWEAR DIRECTIONERS I REMEMBERED HIS FACE but sorry I can't remember his name;; but it turns out to be a regular tall Jordanian wearing a plaid pressed shirt with beige skinny jeans. Yeah.

The system here is more manual then electronic... My experience 'dealing' with Jordanians (more like watching seniors dealing with their antics);; is that they are a very proud bunch. They love their country and they reallyyyy appreciate the beauty of the Arabic language. Most Arabics don't speak English well;; and they would almost always assume that we Malaysian students are fluent in their language. Well;; but if I say that all Jordanians are mute and deaf in the English speaking department;; I would be a big fat dark liar. Most workers in the stores are not exactly 'fluent' but we can communicate in English if EXTREMELY needed. I'm not pointing the finger beside my middle one at anybody;; but this is how I see it GENERALLY.

Before this I lived in Amman. Now I'm living in the city of Irbid that is popular with students. Malaysian students alone reached the number of 1000+. This year;; the year 2012;; is the year with the most number of new students. Every year the number of new students only reach around 100. But this year;; this year the number of new students actually reached 500! I already felt that my family of nine is very big... and a little bit chaotic. I can't imagine the load of work that the seniors have to get done to make sure that the new students are settled in.

Okay I think if I get RM1 for every time I use the term 'the number of students' I can buy a bottle of Shokubutsu by now... My English didn't improve AN INCH since after SPM... I really need to revise more often.

I think I just want to talk about what I see here.. I don't really know Jordan and I haven't had the time to get to know  it's people yet.. But I hope my journey here would not be for naught.

Recently my heart had just been given a blow and my mind is in freaking chaos right now. I hate the fact that I let my guard down and I hate that I am still thinking about it. I don't know the reason why I'm still hanging on. Maybe humans love the idea of hope more than the 'thing' itself
.

I really have to be more careful. Today my friends saw me as listless and a little bit moody. I don't want anything to get in the way of my plans for my life.

No freaking way I am gonna mope here until I get emotional and cry in front of my laptop.

Thank you for reading and please pray for my success.

Afterall;; I'm a private student that really need to step up so that I don't further burden my parents by wasting their money more.

Strange Guys

Assalamualaikum peepers and stalkers :((

Okay today I'm in a bad mood sooo early in the morning because a friend of mine had just asked a stupid question about my status.

I had written that I like people with a sense of humor on my status.

He had quoted me and asked what does it means.

Figures;; since his English is hardly A-Levels stuff. But how can he interpret that into 'I like someone that's horny'???

Is he trying to set down his playing field? Is he like trying to test my reaction to his remark? So if I'm okay then he wilk definitely try opening up thr subject again. Does he think I'll not get angry when he explained something like that to me?? It took all of my emotional state to leave in a civilised manner and not curse him and all of his family tree.

I'm sure that counts as sexual harassment right?

I don't want to get involved with these kind of sick people.

On a lighter tone;; today I have FOUR open houses to attend to :D

I'm sooo excited that I get to mingle with my friends before flying to Jordan with Mr GG and Mr QG.

I'll get back to you later :DD

Urban legends

I do this alllll the time ^.^;

Stalker Ants

It's really awkward;; you know;; seeing a few ants in my room and seeing that few ants in my toilet when I was showering.

Don't Judge A Boook By Its Cover

Assalamualaikum peepers and stalkers. :D  Have you ever seen someone;; I don't care whom;; whether a boy or girl;; that is just so freaking beautiful that you just have to stare??
Humans are like flies you know??Ohh;; flies are fisgusting;; no humans are like...Err... I don't know;; bees?Bees are always attracted to the brightest flower in in the field;; and the most sweet-smelling one.
That's just human nature;; to like something that appears to be beautiful in the physical sense.
I'm not going to berdakwah about how people should TOTALLY NOT see how smooth a girl's complexion is before you befriend her or how good-looking her acquaintance of an acquaintance is before accepting her friend request on Facebook;; because I'm not gonna lie that I totally did that too.
All the time.
What I'm gonna tell you guys is about why people judge books by their cover.
1. Because that's the first thing we see
Seriously. Would you know someone's heart when you have just known her for like two and a half seconds?
For example;; I had just walked into a cafeteria and saw this totally awesome-looking girl who's got perfect complexion;; high nose;; banjjak-banjjak eyes;; healthy lips and a gorge smile laughing at a joke her compared-to-her-unattractive friend had made.
Naturally I would think ;; "Waaaaaaah GORGEOUS. She must have been the social type."
Everyone's a judge.
And everyone's a victim to streotyping.
Like;; all princesses are freakers.
Not entirely true.
Look at Michelle Obama's daughters.
A girl flickering her eyes is considered doing aegyo.Someone wearing glasses is intellligent.Someone taking the art stream is stupid and cannot handle the science stream.A guy wearing tights is gay. (WHY WOULD A GUY WEARS TIGHTS?!!)A guy with rainbow-colored hair is considered K-Pop Star.
And so on and so on.
Well maybe that girl over there widening her eyes and opening clossing opening closing them got dust in her eyeballs;; but how would we know??
Maybe that Harry Potter guy the table behind is so stupid he forgot his name and loved Teletubbies and have a bookcase full of boxsets of special or limited edition Teletubbies merchandises;; but again;; how should we know at first glance??
And definitely maybe that guy with nil skin problems and in tight jeans was wearing his sister's because he had just came from Kuantan to KL and was staying at her place and her cat ate his clothes;; but how would we know when his attire practically screamed I'M GAY!!!!??
And yes;; maybe that guy in orange;; blue;; green;; and purple highlights suffered from his friends's cruel joke when he fell asleep at a friend's place on the couch;; but again;; do we in any way would come to know this fact when we are enjoying a late dinner at Pizza Hut;; and he came in with his frigging guitar on his back??
Yes;; everyone's a judge.
Chests cannot be sliced open to bring out their hearts  at random;; just so we would be less judgemental and would know a person's personality straightaway.
Only the angel Jibrail Alaihi Salam and certified doctors could do that.
If your personality was clearly written on top of your forehead;; everything would be alot easier.
That's why there's a gap for Facebook and other stuffs.In Facebook;; you can type in your personality.
I think the idea came from the creator wanting to reveal who he really is to strangers.
2. Covers are resemblance of the essence.
Someone who dresses well naturally would be liked and poked more than someone whom wears rags and have tousled hair when they came in for work on daily office hours.
Why?
Because well;; neat is a beautiful trait and humans just love beauty.
Anyway;; if I got into someone's car and saw last year's big bottle of Mountain Dew on the back seat with McD takeaways;; I would assume he's a total trasher at the place he staying at.
Similar if I see a guy wiping his mouth after he ice cream caressed his chin. I would think "Oh Em Jerk he's totally gonna wipe that at the couch if he's at home lying on the couch watching reruns of The Nanny." Or something else more man-like.
Like it or not;; what you look like resembles who you really are.
First impressions count.
It counts so much that the sentence I had just written is like one of the most popular sentence ever.
Ohh;; I'm too lazy to write the other one.

I'm truly blessed

Give thanks to Allah;;

for He gave us everything we ever needed;;

for He is always beside us every single minute of our lives;;

for He always care even when we cease to believe in ourselves anymore.

Say Alhamdulillah;; thank you Allah.

Alhamdulillah;;

syukran ya Rabbi.

Especially for Azza ;*

There would be days that we would feel like crying.

But there will come days when the tears had dried;; leaving only stains in their place.

Usrah 2010;; Smiaag

Ily Cg Hunny

Timmy;; Nataj;; MJ;; Nehar;; I love you guys though I never said it out loud.

Saranghae;;

may our friendship last forever and ever and ever and ever~~~ 

Sai and Tsukiyai;;

my pillars of strength.

When you have nothing good to say;; just shut up.

Lagi kurang dosa kalau gitu...

Senyumlah... Dapat pahala!

Sumpah;; I MISS YOU SUNNYYYYYYYY!!!!

Sunny jjang;; saranghaeyo <3

Ily;; I miss you on Invincible Youth

Ok??? Sayang Sunny!!

My sweet;; sweet Bella~~~

Seriously;; when I'm down;; she's the one who makes me smile;;

with her excessive cuteness!

XD

Hope we'll stay close even after we go to our separate paths... Ameen.

Missing you.

Okay;; Sai and I are busy right now;; but that doesn't mean we forgot about you.

Yes;; Sai;; I love you too. Dearly.

The three (very modern) (not to mention Muslim) musketeers!

:3

It's Happyday!

Azillah is really pretty when she's laughing.

I love her smile.

XD

Adorable Sai...!

She's really cuto!

I saved this picture under the name;;

'Killer on the loose'.

I know;; brilliant right?

Serendipity in simplicity

Smiling is a form of a gift;; a 'sedeqah'.

That's what Rasulullah had said;;

and never a statement had rang truer than this one.

Smile :3

^.^"

I'm always making things up.

Schlocky

At last!!
I've been missing this little secret place of mine.
The internet at home has been down for quite a while;; and mama and papa are content just by leaving it as it is.
Which is really a pity;; because I have so many stories to tell;; so many pictures that's really beautiful and really meningful to me;; so many memories to be eternalize here.

I had missed this place;; and I think I will never stop missing this place.

I have become comfortable here!
Too comfy for my own liking.

It's like the internet is my home and my blog is my room.

I'm at school;; it's recess time.
I shouldn't be opening this at school;; right now because it's not approppriate laa;; I'm a frigging student and this is frigging school time;;
I have to sprt out my priorities and stuff.

Tok Wan is going umrah this Saturday!
I wish I can upload the thousands of photos I've captured for the past few weeks;;
but how????

I've discovered a new manga that made me cry for a second;; and changed the mood in the next second till I'm rocking with laughter!
It's Rave Master.
Love it love it love it.

THe recess bell had rung;; recess time is over.
Wish I could stay over more here.

BUt I had a presentation coming up.

And Teacher Sally will go berserk. Maybe.

Hmm;; I'll upload her picture later.

Goddbye blog.
Till next time.
Bila la tu yea?

A girl and her wants. But what does she needs?

I figured out that the world is nothing but glitter and false lies.

Lies are false in the first place right?

But this world we're living in... full of sexed up girls who are only;; what;; 15;; 16 year-old?????

And they're dolled up to look like 25 something just so they can become sex symbols.

Then they'll sell more albums.

Girls are pretty beings.

Someone should look out for them!

HTC phone shoots

Right now I'm doing a project on storing all my photos here.

These are the pictures I took with my parent's phones :)

I was eating at a porridge place at that time.

Trying to make an ad for the deliciousness of the porridge and think I'd make a quite good job :D

I SERIOUSLY love the yellow light~~~

Look at ME!!

I look so young and fresh...

TT^TT

Dare I say;; I look distinctly Korean.

The smiley eyes;; no?

Hmm...
I should flip it upside.
I'll look prettier.

 

I love my eyes in this picture.

Wowwww

Snotty much? 

OKay here I looked like I was in pain or something???

Love this one;;

so artistic.

Like a photoshoot or something!

Sai said I looked quite pretty here.

I think it's the lighting.

Or else I'll be dark as night.

Though I think my smile looked quite forced;; no?

This one look so artistic too~~

I wanna edit this one but I know I won't have the time.

I should take this photo with a camera in pinhole mode.

You know;; then the photo's edge will become all fuzzy and blurry and it will look super cool! 

It's 6.00 AM in the morning and I have to go wake up my brother.

Yesterday papa bought a DSLR CAMERA!!!!

It's really awesome;; it looks

excitingly heavy and the lens

looks like really BIG and LONG!!!

TT^TT

I really appreciate papa having the same passion for technology like teenagers;;

it gave us benefits that's really inspiring since

not everyone is as lucky as we are to get a papa like this...

I love him;; mama too!

And yeah;; today I have to tasmi' Yassin to my PQS teacher.

Tasmi' means to show her that we memorized a surah...

I think today will be a great day;;

I've already memorized quite a bit of Yassin!

I can't wait for my donashi to arrive...

The donashi story.

I made a pact with papa that if I score in the History test I was going to have (at the time;;) tomorrow;; I'll get Donashi!


Fin.

Personality thingy! Fun stuff.

A: loves to laugh
B: crazy at times
C: cute
D: smart
E: has beautiful eyes
F: wild and crazy
G: sexy
H: gives good hugs
I: very hot
J: likes someone
K: is very athletic
L: very good kisser
M: easy to fall in love with
N: very trustworthy
O: has the best personality ever.
P: popular with all types of people
Q: has a smile to die for
R: will make a good boyfriend or girlfriend
S: likes someone
T: very opened minded
U: is loved by everyone
V: not judgmental
W: very sexy
X: never lets people tell you what to do
Y: nice butt!
Z: makes dating fun


My result::

S: likes someone
Y: nice butt!
U: is loved by everyone
I: very hot 
C: cute
H: gives good hugs
I: very hot

Y: nice butt!
A: loves to laugh 
T: very opened minded
S: likes someone 
U: is loved by everyone
E: has beautiful eyes

Woah BIG compliment!
XDDDDD


Even though most of the things said about me is not true;; I love this!!

Al Fitnatul Laknatullah

In my whole fifteen years of living;; I’m glad I’ve learned a lot of things along the way. Some are bad habits I somehow picked up;; some;; I hope;; are good traits that people find attractive.

One of the most important thing I learn in life is the veiled darkness of told and spread lies.

Lies;; lies;; lies. Some of us are entangled in a web of lies so thick they can’t even move. That’s why we can’t even try to start lying. One lie leads to another. That’s because we would lie consistently to cover-up the lie(s) we made before.

Lies about others are called ‘fitnah’ in Islam. Islam is very strict when it comes to ‘fitnah’;; it is ‘haram’;; prohibited in the Islamic way of living. One who does it is the equivalent of one who eats the raw meat of another Muslim companion. Yuck!

TT^TT

Just imagine. Some of us can’t even smell a whiff of sushi before going to the toilet to puke. (This is imaginary supposedly true fact. I haven’t met someone like this before though) Imagine eating a slab of meat of human flesh;; still smelling of just-washed blood. Moreover from someone you know;; let’s assume it’s from someone you liked and talked on a daily basis.

Ohh;; migosh.

That. Is. So. Not. Cool.

Anyway;; since when is cannibalism ‘it’? Hello;; even nibbling ‘ikan blilis’ as lauk wit rice is frowned upon by righteous vegetarians. (This is just and over-exaggeration.. Really over!) More importantly;; apart from it’s totally freaky and gross;; it’s ‘haram’. And it’s against the moral values of humans and the works of nature.

And it hurts.

So bad;; that I’ve watched people cried tears of anger and hate. It’s so sad. Everyone is equal in Allah’s eye;; so who are we to judge other people? We don’t even know ourselves fully to begin with;; Astaghfirullahalazim.. ! Why do we have the right to make one feel so miserable? I know two friends who have fallen victims of fitnah. No;; three actually. They are very religious and very nice to everybody. They wouldn’t even hurt a fly!

But why is it there are rumors about them? It’s because of the existence of a few people whom find pleasure in hurting feelings.

So I can tell you that it hurts real bad when people talk about untrue things about you behind your back;; always whispering and giggling and never having the guts to say it to your face. It’s psychologically and emotionally painful. It’s torture in the purest form. Even the strongest of hearts among us will break eventually.

In this modern world;; things like this is almost always taken too lightly. It’s as if we are forced to become emotionless to survive in this rat race we didn’t even know we’re participating in.

Many people left their hearts at home when they go to work;; they didn’t accidentally forget about being nice to their people;; they are determined to forget that the people around them have emotions. They only care about themselves when they talk.

This is where our society was heading to;; unfortunately. And we can do as much as nothing;; except to watch helplessly and be consumed by this way of life. It’s not right.

Islam teach us to be selfless.

To care about others.

In everything we do;; there are bound to be consequences.

Our actions add up to our personality in people’s eyes.

And wouldn’t you agree that life is so much easier when everyone likes you? By not spreading ‘fitnah’ to doom the society with deteriorating moral values;; why not just shut your mouth when you feel that your words reeks of acid tinged with poison;; even when it’s topped with the reddest cherry?

Just think about it.

Gaah!

>:O

My cousin

She's currently living with me
And she's ohh so stubborn!!!
>:C

I kinda dislike her..
And she's also selfish!

She sleeps with me in my room;; though in different beds;; mind;;
and she always piles up all the pillows on the bed she sleeps in;;
leaving me sleeping pillowless!

TT^TT

Sometimes she left me out..
Like yesterday;; she went out with my friend;;
without asking me to come along!!!

When I know that friend of mine surely asks about my absensce;;
but I know she'll answer that I said I didn't want to come along...

When she's the one who went out of the house with my aunt without my knowledge!

And then in the morning;; she tells me all about last night;;
I know she's trying to make me jealous..

TT^TT

But I'm tired of her;; I already know how she is in person;;
I'm tired of getting agry and pentin that emotion inside me..
So I decided to just let it go...

But I have a feeling that this will continue...
=_="

I don't know what's wrong with her;;
she's not really acting hostile towards me;;
but it's as if I'm the one in the wrong..

I get this feeling that she does all this on purpose!
Maybe I did something that made her feel hurt???

But when????
grr....!!!!

And I have to live with her till school starts..
My life had just turned sucky...??

My eyes are twitching .. So;; let's talk about writing

I have to go to sleep. Seriously.


The clock on the pc showed 1:05AM;; and I'm not really energetic. Like the title explained;; my eyes are twitching. I'm in agony here!!


But I don't want to sleep just yet. No;; don't wanna.


Woww;; I haven't posted a blog (post? haahaa) for like;; how long?? I think the time stretched for a VEEEEERRRYYYYYYY long time. Yes;; I do miss my blog. Yes;; I miss writing to my heart's content whatever was in my mind.


I miss doing them. Really.


But the problem is;; I seem to suffer from a case of writer's block. Haahaa I know;; I'm not even a real writer to begin with. And my hobby wasn't exactly writing stories;; they're too bothersome. The problem with me;; I think I don't have any ideas. I keep recycling other people's ideas;; and I always thought my rendition was really trashy.


Compared to other writers;; be it professionals or amateurs;; who are so serious on getting a piece of their work done and giving their full attention to their work;; I'm just a slacker. 


I like writing .. But I don't think I can be a writer though. I'm just too lazy;; and I was alo an irresponsible human being to begin with. Furthermore;; I'm not creative.


A writer needs a certain amount of creativity to be classified as one with dignity and charisma;; and in the literature world;; those traits goes a long way and also determined the authors' future carriers and popularity.


Heck;; I'm not even sure what I'm going to be in the future yet! Well;; but that doesn't really bother me;; as I think (like) (maybe) everyone around my age group haven't mapped out plans for the future out yet too.


So;; no worries;; just enjoy life as it comes ..


And try to make as much money as possible.


Talk about money;; popular authors must have a lucky charm implanted in their bodies or something. Just imagine;; working at home;; working for how long and at any time we want .. However we want!


In the office people have to wear formal uniforms. But writers;; well;; they work at home;; what's the point in making themselves look presentable?? I imagine that they would certainly eat while typing away on the keyboard. 


:D


Woww;; that's an awesome career;; don't you think?? And;; popular authors;; not only their working time is flexible;; they can also go on a vacation whenever they want;; using the ohhh-so-obvious excuse of finding inspiration.

>:(
 

And sometimes they even got sponsored for going on vacation! (I think)


So;; they actually have everything;; flexible work hours;; money;; and love. I mean;; love and adoration from the fans. And they got to be popular.


Fuuh~~


Sweet

Just been dumped!!!

Oomg;;
I felt really bad!!
I've just been dumped by my dad!!


At this moment;; this time;;
I was supposed to be at the surau!
I was supposed to be praying the Terawih prayer with the others there!!


I really missed Terawih prayers at the surau;;
I mean I haven't gone there for a week now!!!
And today I finally got the chance to go there;;
my dad left me behind.


I was only having a mere 12 minutes or so shower! (Usually it's thirty minutes;; period!)
I was only late for a few measly seconds;; and I was left at home ...


There's really so much to love about the terawih prayers!
And;; what's more;; now is the last ten days in the month of Ramadhan!!
Ahaa ;P
This is so exciting;; as it's in this period of days that Lailatul Qadr will happen.

What is lailatul qadr?? It's practically the most awesomest night ever in this holy month. When we prayed on the Lailatul Qadr;; our prayers will be answered. Who prayed hard on that night;; the pahala is the same as praying for a thousand years.


Candy huh???
I know;; it's a treat!! And Lailatul Qadr is only available for the Prophet Muhammad's descendant ... I don't whether this last sentece is correct grammatically and literally ...


No matter! The point is;; I've been dumped.
By;; like;; the man I love the most on earth. This is soooooo devastating!!

Agenda of the DAY! Gah~

I have never set up goals for myself. People usually make goals for themselves every new year; but I didn't find that remarkably interesting. But today I will make an exception; as I am bored out of my wits now.

• Eat REALLY little
• Study
• Try to keep my mind off manga (gambatte~!!)
• Act appropriately at the kenduri kahwin (wedding ceremony) later in the day
• NO daydreaming
• Try to get the camera from my brother
• Try to be nice to my sisters
• Try to act like a perfect lady
• Look cool at the kenduri kahwin (not look like a fish out of water)
• Try to not make my dad angry

My stomach is screaming, "FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD~~~~!!! ARGH!!!!!"

Kinda sounds scary doesn' it? I just spooked myself