Straight laced teenager vs confident swagger

Have you ever feel so suffocated even though you're standing in an open space?

Have you ever felt little even though you're 160 cm tall? (okay bragging bout my height haha)

In this two storey house that I called home;; I don't know why but I felt trapped. Like the space is not enough;; like the oxygen is being used up.

It all happened because of one word :: Tsukiyai.

I asked her over to my house because she had quite a few problems at home. I was all " come over it's totally cool just sleepover at my house and leave whenever you want. Yea sure you can TOTALLY berkampung kat sini. By all means;; do."

I was soooooo excited to see her. But then I forgot how she's like.

She reminded me so much of papa... The resemblance is strongest when she wasts to defend her opinion;; which I personally think is every time. For example if we were talking bout elephants and I'd say;; "Elephants are grey." Her answer would most probably be a harsh;; "Are you STUPID? (Emphasize on the word stupid here-no she did not yell that to my face- she just had a very interstingly amazing way to do an annoying tone that practically asks for a beating) Elephants are DARK grey."

I mean;; geez;; idealist much?

And I was logging into MY facebook account;; and suddenly I came across a funny comment and I showed it to her;; and she was like "Oh what I can't look" and practically snatched away my phone from my hands. Okayyy so maybe I was overdramatic over that act but what irked me after is that she went and scrolled through ALL of my comments.

She's dastardously private about her phone;; and I respect that because I think all of us harbored secret feelings with our phones. Isn't it logical to leave your friend's phone on the floor?

The school shoots of the week

 

My club's softboard. You see;; I'm in THE ARABIC LANGUAGE CLUB. 

TT^TT

And actually I'm the one assigned to do the softboard - pretty it up- but I don't have the slightest idea HOW.

  

This is the best ranked softboard at school. Belong to the English Club

 

At my school's surau :D

Woww;; jjang!! :DDDD

I look different in these two photos!!

LOVE IT I'M FRIGGING PRETTY~~!!!

XDDDDDDD

   

Embarassed Sai XD

In Basic Accounting Principles class

I know I should pay attention but I'm BORED AND SLEEPY

:D

 

Tahfiz mates :)

  

Kiruru desu!!

 

Kore wa Kiruru to Lolowtt desu!!

:3

  

Class timetable. 

:DDD 

Hehehe;; guess who made it???? 

ME!!!

  

My Form 4 class. Next year it will be Examination Year. 

TT^TT

 Goodbye freedom!

The book I was reading. Good;; but I like 
"Size 14 is not fat either" better.
It's about a murder at a college.
Good stuff!!

The Black And White couple

:DDD

Whoaa emo kid? Need a knife?

I was talking REALLY sweetly;; really friendly with my friend. Cause she's my freaking friend.


So here's the story::


Today alot of people's gonna have a really big sleepover at school. There's a big event coming up;; and that calls for shows and things like that;; and this is the rehersal. My friend was involved in one show.


Playing this kind of traditional music instrument called Angklung.

It was made from bamboo shoots and how to play it??? Have to shake it gently while holding it with your left hand. Quite cool.


She's involved with that.


Hence;; she's involved with the big event coming up I was talking about.


But being me;; I love asking about things that I already know the answer.


I only asked;; "Hey would you sleep at school today?"


And the freaking answer is some thing like;; "Yeah;; I'll be going home late. Oh no;; I forgot;; I won't be going home at all cause I'll be sleeping at school."


Sarcastic much? I was pretty annoyed and just got pissed and said;; "What;; you can't say it properly?"


"Yeah I can't. So?? You don't like it?"


...


Freaky Friday. What happened? She's one of my freaking close friends. I love her! She's really important to me.


BUt she've changed. Totally. I don't know what else to do. She's so far nowadays. Not just with me;; with Sai too. She barely cares about us anymore. WE DO.


All the break-ups;; the mess-ups;; the divorce. We're there for her. We want to. We chose to be there for her. We were not forced to be there for her.


Just hope she'll weather through this storm okay.

This is for you;; about us.

"Kita"

Mungkin kau mengetahui

Aku bukannya lawan

Aku hanya seorang kawan

Yang cuba mengawal diri

Dari bertindak mengikut emosi

Kerana aku manusia biasa

Tidak sempurna

Tetapi

Aku harap aku sudah cuba sedaya

Untuk membuat yang terbaik

Untuk memberi yang terbaik

Untuk dirimu jua

Mungkin kau tidak mengatahui

Kau disayangi

Malah dicintai

Kau mungkin

Tindak mempunyai segalanya

Tetapi

Kau punya personaliti

Sikapmu yang rendah diri

Senyumanmu yang

Ikhlas dari hati

Sentiasa mendahului orang lain

Sentiasa..

Berusaha

Kau berani

Kau tabah

Menghadapi takdir

Kau harungi

Pahit dan getir

Dan mungkin kau mengetahui

Bahwa semua

Yang berlaku

Ada maknanya

Ada isitilahnya

Ada maksudnya

Mungkin juga kau mengetahui

Aku insan

Yang menyayangi dirimu

Yang merindui

Definisi "kita"

P/S:: I love you

Interestingly Unbearable!

There is this friend of mine;; I don’t know what’s her problem actually! I always think that she’s very competitive around me. She’s this person who always boasts about what she have and how her parents or her family or any relative of hers is way cooler than anything I have anyone I’m related to and whoever I am. Ahaa ;P

I can’t really believe her at times. She’s really impossible. At first I kinda admire her thick headed nature;; I thought she has this determination that maybe surpasses my own. Ahaa ;P I found out that I was grossly wrong.

But as time passes;; I found out she is just really annoying! She always wanna prove that she’s better than me;; why?? Does she saw me as a threat??? Or is it because without me realizing;; I’m an egoistical self-centered person whom always talk about I and me???

When I ask her what’s wrong with us (why is it like this??);; she doesn’t really tell me anything important enough about what I can change about myself. So I asked her what’s wrong with me. She doesn’t say that I’m a boaster;; the kind of person that (maybe it's only me ...) I think she is. Ahaa ;P

She is so d*** annoying;; that I found her interestingly pathetic. I think she wants to find comfort in the fact that money walks and money talks in this modern world. So she built this invisible barrier between her and the world;; showing the worse side of her character;; the act of being happy and at the same time talks s*** about her parents. Oh my.

I really hate that foul mouth of hers. Of course;; her parents were a bit hard on her (from what I can summarize from her stories);; but … What the hey???! It wasn’t like her parents abused her or did something horrifyingly traumatic that leaves a scar. Or many scars.

Her parent’s weren’t abusive;; her parent weren’t some murderers. They’re just the same as her;; warped character and all. Haha

She is so annoying;; irritating. Sometimes I feel like grabbing her head and holding her in place and shout at her;; “Change your attitude;; d*****!!!”

But I don’t think she’s ready to change yet. I think she wants people to accept her as she is;; faulty and all. What??? What the hey is that???
Whatever dear;; anyway I still love you because I know people can’t really stand you. My dear;; you’re preciously interesting;; and I think you’ll survive I guess.

Is Xerox no more???

I was just wondering ...
I mean; what happened to us??

What made us change until we become like this???
I mean; we're not as close as we were ...

Xerox seems all wrecked up!
I wonder if we will survive this storm ...

I admit; I miss you~!!

We didn't really talk anymore.
Maybe it's just me; but I feel like we're drifting farther away from each other every single day!
I felt sad ...!

I mean; we've been good friends for nearly three years now!

Maybe sometimes our opinions differ; but you guys rock my world!
As much as I sometimes hate to admit. Yess *sigh*. You guys are not the only ones who found myself very egoistical. I think am an egoist too~!

But sometimes you're just so annoying! So irritating!
Ahaa ;P

I figured out you guys sometimes felt like that to me too.
Sometimes we are like strangers; enemies even.

But I always know our relationship will not really suffer.

But now I'm not so sure anymore.

You guys are just so cool ...
Too cool to be with me anyway
Ahaa ;P

Bitter; bitter me.

I guess sometimes I got carried away or something.

I know I am an emotional person. Yess; no lie!
I appreciate all you guys have done to me.

Sometimes you hurt me; I'll hurt you back.
Sometimes I scarred you; you scarred me back.
But always we loved each other.

The three of us always come back together after a fight.
We'll always stick for each other right???

I hope so ...

Because I think I'm still in love with you guys.

Glasses galore!!

My favorite photo! This was taken at school.
I just have to have that yellow sunglasses!! It was on sale that day; ya know?? I just got this hunch; this longing; this REALLY urgent feeling inside me.

My mind was like; I HAVE TO BUY THIS!!!! Do you know that it's yellow???

LOL
This was supposed to be funny anyway

But feel free to said something sarcastic to me; don't worry I'll only react by slapping your face! It wouldn't hurt ... Just will bleed a little

Seriously; I'm not in the mood to study. When will the mood come??? Beats me.