Tell me one teen who's in sync with her parents

Tell me.
Seriously;; call me in the middle of the night even;; because I really wanna know WHO.
Okay;; memang tengah bengang tahap gamat ni.

Guess with who?
Mama la.
Why?
Because she expected me to study using the internet when I haven't blogged for like;; what;; two weeks;; and then expected me to use the internet only for studying.
Not allowed to play-play.

Astaghfirullahalazim....!!!
Everyday I missed this place like crazy.
Fine;; I'm an addicted blogger.
But it's kinda harmless!!
I mean;; I'm not a guy;; I'm not blogging about women's body parts or something.
And I'm not paedophile;; I'm not blogging about my desire for children.
Furthermore;; I'm not a psychopathoc killer;; I'm really not gonna blog about the cleanest and best way to throw away the body.
And I'm certainly not gonna write;; "I assure you the human brain is best grilled till the it's brownish;; like a bear's fur."
Heck;; I'm no frigging cannibal.

Okay;; but I got what I want in the end.
But I wanna use this portable modem on my computer.
Pictures;; graphic memories of my life thus far..
And there are the Europe pictures I  promised in there!!
TT^TT
Ya Allah;; berilah aku kesabaran...

I can only use the net till 8.00 AM.
Come on Mama;; it's Saturday;; gimme some slack.
I haven't welcomed myself here for forever.
It really made me suffer.

Azza I miss you.
Get well soon.
Take care of your body yea;; jangan demam lagi...

Okayy;; this is it for my post this time.
I'll launch into long-period story-mode when my grades put smiles on muka orang tua saya.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..   

The frigging workload

It's 3.38 AM.

I'm a frigging high-school student;; yet I'm up at this hour.

I wasn't even planning on blogging;; but I wanna tell someone about what I've been thinking about.

I wanna complain and blogging is the only way I can do it.

I was up at 3.15 AM;; got a shower cause I didn't get one yesterday:: I practically passed out after got home from school.

Tomorrow I have a Science Report due:: the drawing hasn't been sketched yet. I haven't memorized all of Yassin yet:: I'll have to stand in class for a whole hour of PQS. I also have to think about my club's softboard. Yeah;; the green one. And I also happen to be  a librarian:: I have to go there today at after-school hour to survey my work. And I have Tahfiz to think about! 

TT^TT

And the reason for me risking myself of getting caught by my parents at 3.00-ish opening the internet and using Adobe is Nedy:: I'm in the Graphics Team of the school's annual magazine for this year;; she's my manager. No;; my girl. I mean;; my .............

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Monitor???

Everyone's messed up

Right about now;; everyone I know is messed up one way or another.

There's my housemaid. She'd have problems with her marriage since like;; ever.


And there's this guy I know. He went to school and doesn't find it interesting enough;; and cause problems just because he can. And he's kinda like sexually frustrated. Haahaa. What a joke. He should be perfect.


On the other side there's this girl I know. She's not just a girl I know;; she's my friend. She's precious to me;; I kinda love her. A lot of things happened yesterday;; I don't blame her for being so cold towards everyone at school today. I think I'm kinda like blaming myself.



There was also this other girl I fell in love with;; she's really amazing. She's so open-minded;; so carefree and happy that it's fun just being with her. She's good at making people laugh;; that's a rare gift to have. Everyone trusts her. She have so many responsibilities;; yet she tries her best to not get mad at everyone else. Something happened today;; and she's pissed like heck.


Another friend of mine is moving out of town. I wonder if she's gonna be okay? Yeah;; of course she will be. She's good at taking care of herself;; so independent;; and she's good at making people to like her. But I think she's been hiding her feelings. That's just a guess though.


I also happen to know a woman;; who have emotional issues. Maybe she's feeling empty? Yeap;; I think that's the core of the problem.


There is also this man I know;; he's been trying his hardest. Yet I know he was really wondering that maybe his hardest wasn't enough? He tries to be perfect;; yet he failed sometimes. I wanna say that it's okay if we let our guard down sometimes;; but in truth;; it's not. He would never believe it if I said it to him anyway.


And then there's me. Haahaa. I think my problem is I don't know hat my priorities are;; and what I want in life. So;; I decided to just have fun. Though it's kinda wrong.


Heh.


I wonder if I should go to school tomorrow?? If I wouldn't;; things are gonna be damaged for good. I'm predicting an ending of a short but sweet friendship;; if I don't go tomorrow. Ohh;; and there's also another friendship that I've begged to so it won't fall apart.


Those are my responsibilities. Even though I didn't care about them now;; they're still my responsibilities.


XD



Gosh. I've become so pathetic.

Is Xerox no more???

I was just wondering ...
I mean; what happened to us??

What made us change until we become like this???
I mean; we're not as close as we were ...

Xerox seems all wrecked up!
I wonder if we will survive this storm ...

I admit; I miss you~!!

We didn't really talk anymore.
Maybe it's just me; but I feel like we're drifting farther away from each other every single day!
I felt sad ...!

I mean; we've been good friends for nearly three years now!

Maybe sometimes our opinions differ; but you guys rock my world!
As much as I sometimes hate to admit. Yess *sigh*. You guys are not the only ones who found myself very egoistical. I think am an egoist too~!

But sometimes you're just so annoying! So irritating!
Ahaa ;P

I figured out you guys sometimes felt like that to me too.
Sometimes we are like strangers; enemies even.

But I always know our relationship will not really suffer.

But now I'm not so sure anymore.

You guys are just so cool ...
Too cool to be with me anyway
Ahaa ;P

Bitter; bitter me.

I guess sometimes I got carried away or something.

I know I am an emotional person. Yess; no lie!
I appreciate all you guys have done to me.

Sometimes you hurt me; I'll hurt you back.
Sometimes I scarred you; you scarred me back.
But always we loved each other.

The three of us always come back together after a fight.
We'll always stick for each other right???

I hope so ...

Because I think I'm still in love with you guys.