The frigging workload

It's 3.38 AM.

I'm a frigging high-school student;; yet I'm up at this hour.

I wasn't even planning on blogging;; but I wanna tell someone about what I've been thinking about.

I wanna complain and blogging is the only way I can do it.

I was up at 3.15 AM;; got a shower cause I didn't get one yesterday:: I practically passed out after got home from school.

Tomorrow I have a Science Report due:: the drawing hasn't been sketched yet. I haven't memorized all of Yassin yet:: I'll have to stand in class for a whole hour of PQS. I also have to think about my club's softboard. Yeah;; the green one. And I also happen to be  a librarian:: I have to go there today at after-school hour to survey my work. And I have Tahfiz to think about! 

TT^TT

And the reason for me risking myself of getting caught by my parents at 3.00-ish opening the internet and using Adobe is Nedy:: I'm in the Graphics Team of the school's annual magazine for this year;; she's my manager. No;; my girl. I mean;; my .............

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Monitor???

For old times' sake

Today I finally get to update my blog. It's been quite a while. Things have happened.


I started to officially update this blog a year ago. And now;; pejam celik pejam celik a year had already past. Ohh;; wowww...


I still feel like a fifteen year-old;; but in truth;; I'm already sixteen. Some of my grandmother's friends marry at sixteen. What I wanna emphasize is how slow today's teenagers grow mentally.


Mature?? I don't feel mature! I even dreamt of being in Peter Pan's circumstance;; not growing up for forever and ever. That would be awesome;; no?? 

Then I wouldn't have any obligations to anyone;; not even myself. People will take care of me;; and I wouldn't be expected to take care of others. Attractive prospect;; no?? To me;; it truly is.


My dreams have shifted quite a bit. Now I think of the future with more realistic lines to adher by. I think it's kinda for the better. Though if you look at it from another point of view;; some people would say that my naivette was killed by this change in me.


I always want to do something artistic. 

Writing? I like it. 
Drawing? My long-time love.
Doodling? I do it occassionally.


I love to do so many things.. At times I'm not sure what I really wanna do with my life. I've thought over alot about how my future will turn out to be. Seems to me I only remember the sweeter ones.


Last year I would laugh with abandon spntaneously.
This year I try to find time and excuse to laugh out loud.

It's not easy to laugh nowadays. My schedule has a major makeover;; starting last week;; Wednesday to be exact.


You know the feeling of getting caught in the middle of a web of tangled up dreams and hopes of our parents? Pretty much like that. Feels like Iike I was  swimming freely in my own sea;; in my own world;; until suddenly my limbs were caught up by that net my parents casted. I didn't know why I suddenly want to be free at all. I mean;; I love my family;; and I kinda agree with my parents' method of teaching me about life and stuff...


Whoaa... Caught me off-guard;; that month did. Suddenly responsibilities were thrown at me like pieces of bread thrown at pigeons.


There's this story of a guy who went to the beach and started counting the beads of sand there. This story was something like that;; never-ending. If it wasn't me who's feeling like this;; generations to come teenagers still feel like this around my age.


Hope the mature years will come sooner!


Ahaa ;P

best birthday ever!

My 15th birthday is my best so far.
The presents I got;;

• A rabbit Doodoll.It's a quite cute bunny!
• A chocolate cake that's terribly chocolatey!
• A box of Ferrero Rochere chocolates. Yummy!
• The trip to Dubai.
• Meeting Azza again.

The 14th;; 15th and 16th December was great;; I have a really great time!!

14th December::

• Intan's phone went missing. TT^TT. We searched everywhere in The Mall;; but to no avail. It's practically a waste of time! We called and called;; and searched and searched (might I add again;; EVERYWHERE);; but it's just no use. In the end we gave up. She cried. I feel bad for her too...! TT^TT
• My aunt treat me out to dinner :D. It's really awesome!
• She surprised me with taking Fara-san along too! I'm really glad... My cousin;; Intan;; recovered from her very dreadful loss and bounced back to happiness. I'm glad she's back okay again! TT^TT. Really touched that Fara-san come along with us!
• The day I got my first birthday present! Fara-san gave the box of Ferrero Rochere I talked about. Really excited!

15th December::

• Meeting an old friend in the lrt. Really great~~~~!!!! :D

16th December::

• Meeting my best friend for the first time in a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time!!! I really love her to death! XDDDDD
• Going to the infamous Times Square together.
• We just take lots and lots and LOTS of pictures of us together. It's really awesome;; since it's the christmaas season;; the mall is transformed! The Lower Ground level's center had become a little village with traditional yellow cobbled streets. There's also Santa's sledge and snowmen wearing scarves! And there's glittering snow hanging from the very high ceiling... It's very magical and surreal!!
• Getting another birthday present in the form of a cute chocolate cake! I'm really touched.. Because Azza made it herself!! TT^TT
• Locky;; Azza's little brother came along and got himself lost... We have to search for him! It doesn't help that there's no way for us to contact him since he didn't have a phone. >:O What really got me and Azza worked up is that he's our PHOTOGRAPHER!!! So;; when he's gone;; we couldn't capture pictures of us together anymore!! It sucks ;-( We finally found him after 4 hours.
• I got myself birthday presents of my own! XD Since Times Square is so full of VERY CHEAP AND PRETTY clothes;; I bought a weird-shaped dark grey buttoned-up shirt and a blue vest with chunky gleaming silver (really??? It looks like it..?!) buttons for RM10 each.. How's that?! I feel really satisfied with my puchases this time...! Because it's like;; really CHEAP!!!
• Getting really WET when I crossed the road to go to Jusco. Yesterday rained really hard. My left shoe got off while I'm running;; IN THE RAIN! It's really embarassing;; and I have to turn back around to put it back on. Thank God it's raining so heavily;; I think people don't notice... I think?!
• When I was enjoying my McFlurry Oreo at McDonald's;; I saw a friend at school that I was quite close to... I pointed at her and (she's so really slow in reacting) she screamed. No kidding! She's really excited upon seeing me. What's funny is;; when we sat down and have a lively chat together;; she said she was thinking of how to give my present to me. In her hand she was holding this plastic bag. I asked her what did she got for me;; and she said to have a look. She commented that when she looked at it;; she remembered me. I was really curious so I opened the wrapped present;; to reveal... A strict looking Doodoll bunny! I just laughed. She's really mean! It even have blue chest hair!! XDD But it was just a joke... And I know that thing must be quite expensive... I really appreciate it! It's cute...!

That's basically how the past three days have been... And it's been the best three days in my life so far! Especially yesterday;; and I have some 50 pictures to prove it!! I love you Fara-san;; Intan;; Diddy;; Azza;; Locky;; Sai;; Takeshi;; Alfonso;; and everyone who wished me a happy birthday!!! I really appreciate you guys;; it's the best birthday for me ever!!! :DD I hope I can spend much more time with you again;; Azza and Locky!

Ahaa ;P